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Self Discapline

This blog may seem a bit personal but so is this journey right ? It may not seem to make sense at first but it will . The fight for health has been always apart of me but I gained some weight a year and a half a go . I decided to dedicate myself in losing it . I was also in an intense relationship with a person whom I loved very much and lost recently so I poured those emotions of loss even more into the gym as therapy . In my quest I also grew even closer to God in my healing . The last person I been intimate was with my boyfriend we had a deep love or so I thought he loved me deeply. I believe God wants us to save intamacy for marriage , obviously I didn’t do this in the past . I’m not dating I’m still in mourning and in healing process but I want to follow God’s will for me . Self discipline in all aspects of my life . My diet , sex, gym , work . I think this gives you a clear picture on who people really are with out getting your emotions involved .

I don’t know what my future holds . I pray for my future every day . I’m 40 years old , fighting for my goals and my healing. It’s rough . One day at a time right .

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