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Today . I weighed myself even though I lost inches this month I still weigh the same for 3 weeks. Makes no sense it’s like the last 10 pounds won’t go away. My mental status this morning in a new break up a crazy moment I find myself curled in a ball crying my eyes out. It just hurts to the core.

The person you love is not the person you thought. Brings so much pain and confusion. That’s not from God my mentor said . Gods love isn’t confusing or painful it’s not of God . But it hurts and I missed the gym deciding today I can hurt . Then I got hit by an expensive Mercedes on my way to
work . A beautiful trans gender comes out ask me if I’m ok but all I thought about was my heart is not ok . I cried going into work . My mom text me told me not to be upset God has a plan Amy you will win . This morning didn’t feel much like a winning moment . But I know it’s true . God has a plan no matter how bad it hurts. He is the lighted path . Don’t lose heart Amy . I remember I’m a fighter but tired from the fight .

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