My Fit Journey

Life can be cold and unexpected and can take your breath away. But I’ve learned that no matter how hard it is I’m not lost. Because whatever is meant by God will stay and what isn’t , isn’t. I don’t know how to make it easier or how to give answers. All I know is to follow God’s purpose and to love with God’s heart .

On my fitness journey I play with my diet a little. I typically stick with a clean version of keto but I do flexible dieting so I don’t gain the weight back ever and so I can gain muscle and not kill my matabolism. I’ve done all these things in the past. Starving myself of carbs doing low calorie and the minute you eat you gain it back and then some! I decided I didn’t want to gain it back I wanted the good body for a life time. So for the most part I do keto I keep my carbs lo but some days I eat carbs but keep calories low. It’s a balance. It works for me and for a year I’ve never gained any weight. I actually spent 3 days eating crap for Raigan’s birthday I felt guilty and lost 5 pounds!!! I trained my body right this time. 95% of the time I’m disciplined but when I slip I’m Ok!!!! I wanted to talk about Mayonsise. I feel like it’s a myth everyone is afraid of it. Does anyone realize what it’s made of ? The two things us lifters need ! Eggs and olive oil 2 healthy fats! When I’...

The old saying goes the catipiilar has to die to himself to get his wings. Does he know when he falls asleep in his small cacoon he will wake up even more beautiful then before. Outside beauty means nothing it’s becoming who we were meant to be and not caring what others think in the process. You know what’s best for you. I knew I needed help I knew I needed healing in healing I found myself. In that I found a voice that was buried under pain. I’m glad I am true to myself. True to God.

This is the fitness blog for the fitness journey only but I think mental health and physical go hand in hand - so for this one time I’m writing to all of you about this life changing event that happened tonight. Pretty weird it happened in my car. I’ll do my best to explain it to you the way it was told to me. In my entire life I feel like tonight I learned the most important message one I knew one I told to others but in 40 years never sank in until tonight. God is so good. Today was a bad day right I was focused on my game at work all day, and sold nothing. I had the same day yesterday. For a Black Friday I should’ve sold 20 grand easy. I won’t get into details of the day but it was hard and emotional. Why God I wondered? But wasn’t it the same why that had me pulled over on the side of the road on my 40th birthday in May throwing up in tears and sorrow over the recent break up I went through and had no answers? Why God ? Was it the same why when I lost my job in April and a tow truc...

My heart you see something is wrong with it and after several stays in the hospital, many near death experiences, doctors telling me I need surgery all they can tell me is my heart beats to fast sometimes and it pumps blood wrong. I carry pills every where I go Incase it beats to fast. I cut my sugar, my carbs, but it’s not enough. Running has been the one thing that has kept my heart rate low. I self conditioned my heart and taught it to beat at certain rate as I run. But if I miss running for just a mere few days my heart is back up again. Sometimes I wonder if my days are numbered if I will live to see my daughter grow. I pray I do. But God has kept me alive through great tragedies so far. I trust him with my life. Watching and training my heart in this fitness blog I can tell you to believe me when I say running is a life saver. Start walking. I trained my heart by running 2 minutes walking 2 minutes now I run no problem a half hour at a steady heart rate of 150. My heart doctor sa...

It’s Saturday night , I spent the evening running and I get so much crap for not going out with my friends to the bars or the clubs or Amy why do you not date it’s not normal and instead tonight I went running alone in the cold on a Saturday night. Why ? Because I’m loving me right now and that is way more important than sitting in a club accomplishing nothing. And I can’t self heal dating and why is it anyone’s business. Maybe I’m a practicing nun you never know. Self preservation should be a commodity. More should try it instead of having sex with randoms in parking lots. So here I am alone in my bed about to Netflix Pretty Little Liars I’m so content with that .

I’ve never felt more alone then I feel now but I know I’m where God wants to show me heal me and guide me . I sit here on my lunch at Chipotle eating tofu . Watching the crowds. I feel sadness deep sadness and a peace at the same time. It’s going to be alright I tell myself