My Fit Journey

 Over 2 week hump . It hasn’t gotten easier but it has gotten to where I know I can’t miss . I didn’t miss before but what I mean is I can’t give up on myself  I’m to invested . I’m not even sure if I see the difference yet . But what I do know is the difference between me today and the better me last year . So I have to reach my goals . I’m not giving up , so I’m going to the gym now . 

 I bought measuring tape to keep and track measurements . I set a 3 month goal to get back to where I was last year . I’m working hard I’m extremely tired . But I will do this . Here is before and after day one to day 15 see difference in my legs so far . 

 I’m tired it’s 84 degrees , I do not want to go to the gym . I’m ready to go armed in sports bra and work out gear . I was looking at my pictures from just last year to my picture now , how did I let myself go . I was so skiing so happy . I am now very happy with my life but not my body . I’m not stopping until I get back to my old self you can see me last year in this picture holding the weight and now holding it in my thighs. I feel brave posting this . But how else will I stay accountable .  So here the new journey begins .

 My diet consist of this is in no order and not all in one day but what I eat in 75 hard :  Atkins protein Drink  Keto os  Pineapple  Greek yogurt or protein yogurt  Almonds  Pistachios  Lean protein : chicken , fish  Salad  Water  Coffee  Tea  Berries  Occasional puffing sugar free sweet tooth  Keto chips 4 carbs  Eggs  Frozen berries  All veggies !  Minimal rice .  That’s it !!!! 

 A little over a year ago I had a 6 pack . I never was so proud of myself . I started an amazing new job and began to put myself last including the gym . I started 75 day hard to get myself back to me again .  I just am ending week 1. The Only hard part is finding time so now for week two I need to readjust to make time a priority in order to make myself a priority I’m going to keep this journal to inspire others in their fitness journey as well I will also put up before and after pictures. Thank you for the support . My 6 pack I’m giving until November 1. Which requires a lot of discipline. But I know what it takes and I know I can do this. 

Last year I was proud of my body now Im back to lights out when I get ready again. I feel like all my hard work went out the window for nothing all because of this quarantine I feel sad and depressed like I'll never get it back this isn't like me I always have the perseverance to have a new goal but I was going somewhere now I feel like I'm starting almost all over again. I put on my shirt that I've worn for years that I used to swim in now is almost too tight, for an interview yesrtday almost brought me to tears . I signed back up with my trainer and started back at the gym its now open . Being out of the gym 3 months its hard now im weak and slow i used to be fast and strong and efficiant.I feel like I failed myself. People say who cares , I care! I was deticated and I worked hard. So here I am starting from scratch. on the record it sucks .