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Last year I was proud of my body now Im back to lights out when I get ready again. I feel like all my hard work went out the window for nothing all because of this quarantine I feel sad and depressed like I'll never get it back this isn't like me I always have the perseverance to have a new goal but I was going somewhere now I feel like I'm starting almost all over again. I put on my shirt that I've worn for years that I used to swim in now is almost too tight, for an interview yesrtday almost brought me to tears . I signed back up with my trainer and started back at the gym its now open . Being out of the gym 3 months its hard now im weak and slow i used to be fast and strong and efficiant.I feel like I failed myself. People say who cares , I care! I was deticated and I worked hard. So here I am starting from scratch. on the record it sucks .

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