So far so good I’m exhausted but I eat almost no carbs I live on coffee and water I’ve seen a huge over all drop in my heart rate. Good news !!!im waiting to do my weight and measurements in two weeks to see how close I’ve gotten. So far my sleep is better, my metabolism is better my mood has been better I feel great !!! My calorie intake is about 750. I work out as usual . I’m excited I hope to hit my goal by Valentines !!!! I’ll be a valentines babe !!!! Well .... for Raigan I suppose .
It’s 10:57 pm . For the first time I feel total hand over to God at this point. It took 3 years to get here didn’t it. There were parts I was holding back from God like here you go Jesus you can control this but Im holding on to this , sometimes things can anchor you down from the freedom God has for you I don’t know how to teach other people this but I know God wants me to. I had a dream of the love of my life and I would’ve been damned to let that go. I almost died holding on to it. We have things right , things we can’t let go , can’t forgive , or things we hope in . But it’s that twist in fate God wanted me to realize . When we hope in something of the world it will sink us because people will fail us. My hope needed to be in God. Not my love of my life or anything of this world. I got to tell you it was the hardest thing ever to take the thing I loved the most and say here God it’s yours it’s no longer mine . Because you see if something is of God , God will bring it back . ...

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