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Yes it’s scientific you can die from a broken heart . Did you know we store emotions in our muscles and bones ? Not only is this scientifically true it’s also in the Bible. I remember when I was training for a fitness competition the harder I worked with my trainer I would cry sometimes not due to physical pain but the emotional pain buried that was physically being worked out . That’s why it’s good to excersise interesting right ? Last night I had an awful seizure all I can say is if you can imagine feeling the worst over dose this is how my seizure felt . Will I always survive them? I think stress has a lot to do with it . A man at my work told me , Amy I’ve never met a more beautiful cool
Kind hearted woman that so many bad things happen to you makes no sense . It makes no sense to me . I get hit on like crazy but the one man I loved could careless I was alive. This began to effect me last night as it does many days . I can’t make sense of this persons crazy actions it haunts me then this seizure happens . This morning I watched a pastor preach because I search and listen and read Gods word every chance I can . I watched this sermon I posted on my Facebook the pastor said isn’t funny Satan attacks us where we feel we are lacking and where we are wounded . Light bulb came on instantly and he said that place is the place we have the most value ! I mean wow light bulb moment
My wounds are rejection and not being enough not pretty enough exc my ex made me feel
This way by telling me he loved me then rejecting me for no reason . Telling me I was the one and then leaving me and ignoring me . Was I not pretty enough ? Good enough ? It was a tool
Satan used this person to attack my value . This information helped but it does not make the pain stop but at least I know I’m valuable and I’m enough !!! And when Satan is trying to
Attack something that’s valuable Gods Grace is on its way . Healing is a hard process and learning my place in Jesus helps heal wounds and maybe the pain of losing my love will
Always be there but at least I know I’m enough and I wanted to
Share God’s love with you so you’ll
Chase after Gods heart and he can heal you too . It’s Sarurday night I’m laying in my bed in my dark room writing all of you . Stay close to God he will guide your path don’t let the world tell you different .


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