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The past month I’ve lost motivation for life as we know it . And this isn’t me . The real me is motivated, positive , happy , this me is tired and worn and can’t get out of bed and always in a fog
My doctor a year ago told me my thyroid was barely working but if I took medicine it would raise my heart to high . But I need to it also stops weight loss when your thyroid is low I’m sure if I just took the medicine I would hit my goal within weeks and I would feel
better . I’m sure I need vitamins to . My doctors app is Tuesday . It could also be depression I mean let’s face it I’ve been through hell and back so many times it’s becoming a vacation spot and Monday I go to my counseling should help . I’m definitely doing everything I can to help
myself in any way I can do . I’m the fighter no matter how tired or sad or much I need to just give up I can’t . Raigan depends on me . I’ve survived this far . It’s like I’m all the way out here in the wilderness alone , my love is gone , my friends gone , I’m here alone with God . I have to hold his hand so now where do we go .

Where do we go from here .

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