My Fit Journey

I have a trainer I’m lifting 6 days a week my goal is to have my waist at 27 by January and my thighs at 20. I will fight for this goal run for this goal . I will win for this goal and fight like I never have before be fitter then I ever have :

I’m listening to Swing Life Away by Rise Against. I decided to insert a blog post in my fit journey. The journey it’s self has nothing to do with fitness to me. It’s about beating out your enemy your own mind . I worked hard to get this far and I’m building value within myself. The crowd says Amy I don’t see a difference, Amy your fat, Amy your legs are chubby, Amy your a project. It’s funny when your building yourself up there is a crowd tearing you down. But guess what I look at my progress pics and I’m proud of how far I’ve come and I don’t give one damn about the haters the gossipers, it’s almost funny when people are so mean it’s sad. I’m here to say if I can be the girl who turned the lights out to not look into the mirror a girl who hated herself who found the courage to over come my Demons and know I’m ok not because the crowd says I do or don’t but because I say so . Not to mention God says so ! I am a healthier braver person. You can do it to - picture before and after l...

I remember last year I did whatever it took to cover my body up and now I don’t care what I wear but I still feel the same fat ha ha I guess I’m never happy but that’s what keeps me going and that’s just me I realize that’s what separates me from most people I’m a beast and maybe I’m not at my max goal but at least I never give up and at least I never ever give up on myself and I am true to my word how many people do you know like this ? I’m loyal to everyone and to myself . I’m a special person and I will only allow special people in my life I’m tigers blood I’m rare and I’m God’s child . Amen

Yes it’s scientific you can die from a broken heart . Did you know we store emotions in our muscles and bones ? Not only is this scientifically true it’s also in the Bible. I remember when I was training for a fitness competition the harder I worked with my trainer I would cry sometimes not due to physical pain but the emotional pain buried that was physically being worked out . That’s why it’s good to excersise interesting right ? Last night I had an awful seizure all I can say is if you can imagine feeling the worst over dose this is how my seizure felt . Will I always survive them? I think stress has a lot to do with it . A man at my work told me , Amy I’ve never met a more beautiful cool Kind hearted woman that so many bad things happen to you makes no sense . It makes no sense to me . I get hit on like crazy but the one man I loved could careless I was alive. This began to effect me last night as it does many days . I can’t make sense of this persons crazy actions it haunts me th...

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Some days most days I’m ok . Think like a champion I tell myself . Champions don’t feed their body junk champions don’t miss work outs. You can’t be what you want to be if you don’t assume the role. You have to keep the end in mind to reach your goals . Then I have those sad days in my head in the slump why is he gone why did this happen and I get sad I get lost I lose focus I miss a run I eat a something and I get back up again and slap myself . How do I stay away from those moments I don’t think you can it’s kind of like intermittent pain . It just has to work it’s self out as I pray read my bible and keep going . Don’t lose faith . If I can do it so you can you .

I don’t care who you are scientifically as someone who is sick with epilepsy can tell you ketosis is good for your body . It’s not a fake fad or a thing that’s made up it actually heals seizures it heals the way your brain functions . So anyone including trainers or doctors tells the claims are false there full of bullshit . Ketosis puts you in a fat burning state instead of a glucose burning state when your body changes , my body stops seizing not because Keto is a fad but because it’s science . It’s the healing diet for sick children who can’t control their seizures as well . I don’t eat ungodly amounts of fat . I don’t restrict myself or eat bad fats it’s a healthy way of life that does not include processed white flour or bad carbs or at least over 50 grams a day . I eat as many veggies as I like , lean proteins and get my fats from eggs , avocado and healthy oils. My heart is in the 50-60 Instead of 80-90. My weight is 130 instead of 175-180 and I feel great . I do flexible dieti...