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Perception

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It was a corporate event I had the chance to meet every important person in my company, it was cocktail hour and I chose to hide inside the dining hall alone . You ask what is perception ? It’s all mental and most of the time what we perceive is not true. I was hiding because I didn’t feel like I was enough. Not thin enough , perfect enough , pretty enough . Whatever the case was I was not visible in the most important place . This was my time to shine . I’m enough . I need to work on this. I have these goal pants I swore I would never get into . I’m wearing them today I promise I swore I would never wear them . Yet I feel still not enough . When are we enough ? To not chase after the men who didn’t love us left us lacking ? When are we enough to say I’m loveable and beautiful
Because of who I am . Love is not someone hurting you and it’s not hurting yourself .

I know I have to work on this . But I wanted to share .

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