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Talking The Talk

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I may weigh less then I have in years . But the moment I go to the gym and see the girls who are a million times better then me I feel like the old me . Every step of success has been erased because I’m not them , I’m not the girl with the perfect butt or 24 inch waste I’m just aspiring to be her . I don’t discount how far I’ve come or the woman I am I’ll be damned if I’m not proud of her.  Because that woman is an over comer. It’s not that I won’t hit my goals I’ve come this far but maybe wanting to be better keeps us going . I mean I have Jen Hewards butt as my screen saver. So what is mental health where do we draw the line in self loathing to self love ? I don’t really have the answer to that . All I know is I need to keep moving forward . As long as I don’t give up on me does it matter ? Aren’t I winning ?

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