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Miracle by A Landslide

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?

Such power in Gods name . Who can be against us if God is for us? I prayed yesterday morning in my car I was tired and felt beat up emotionally and physically from being up at hospital night before. I couldn’t shake the pain of the toxic relationship I keep getting pulled in and out of always hoping for a change or a miracle. We always want to believe the best but some people aren’t well and they take you in there black hole with you. Bondage is a huge thing and when someone is stuck in great bondage they don’t know God they aren’t free. So they pull you into there pain and suffocate you over and over. 

The night before my heart was so high I thought this was it as my medicine was not working I raced to the hospital . When I got home in the morning I had to go to work. 

I prayed to God for joy. I was stuck in the poison of some else’s pain. I asked God for a miracle in my life for joy for strength and I prayed to close every deal that day at work. Which is impossible. But I told God I needed him that day. ( yesterday) as I prayed I worshiped God in my car on my way to work. I found it hard in my grief and pain. When I got to work I felt joy and I was not tired at all I was full of energy! I also sold every customer who walked in the door like 10 people!!! 

I got in my car after work and began to pray. I knew God was saying I’m here as I prayed for my toxic relationship that just ended God showed me the darkness that was there with him. I sang to God all the
Way home. Filled with joy and Gods love. I knew this guy was not following God and I saw the lies. I knew I had to let it go. I then saw the love God has for me always watching over me showing me he is there even when I’m in dispair. 

It’s hard honestly letting go of a loved one. But I have to trust God for my path. God would not send someone to cause harm and great destruction in my life. This is not of God neither is there character. If someone loves and follows God they would love you with Gods heart. Do you think God causes pain and confusion? No . It’s toxic. I have to look up instead of forward. This is where joy comes from. God says to cling to what is “good” and get rid of the rest. 

Know God and you will know Gods people. Hold on to Gods freedom and joy. If you don’t have it ask God for it. 

Amen 


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