My Fit Journey

Yes it’s scientific you can die from a broken heart . Did you know we store emotions in our muscles and bones ? Not only is this scientifically true it’s also in the Bible. I remember when I was training for a fitness competition the harder I worked with my trainer I would cry sometimes not due to physical pain but the emotional pain buried that was physically being worked out . That’s why it’s good to excersise interesting right ? Last night I had an awful seizure all I can say is if you can imagine feeling the worst over dose this is how my seizure felt . Will I always survive them? I think stress has a lot to do with it . A man at my work told me , Amy I’ve never met a more beautiful cool Kind hearted woman that so many bad things happen to you makes no sense . It makes no sense to me . I get hit on like crazy but the one man I loved could careless I was alive. This began to effect me last night as it does many days . I can’t make sense of this persons crazy actions it haunts me th...

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Some days most days I’m ok . Think like a champion I tell myself . Champions don’t feed their body junk champions don’t miss work outs. You can’t be what you want to be if you don’t assume the role. You have to keep the end in mind to reach your goals . Then I have those sad days in my head in the slump why is he gone why did this happen and I get sad I get lost I lose focus I miss a run I eat a something and I get back up again and slap myself . How do I stay away from those moments I don’t think you can it’s kind of like intermittent pain . It just has to work it’s self out as I pray read my bible and keep going . Don’t lose faith . If I can do it so you can you .

I don’t care who you are scientifically as someone who is sick with epilepsy can tell you ketosis is good for your body . It’s not a fake fad or a thing that’s made up it actually heals seizures it heals the way your brain functions . So anyone including trainers or doctors tells the claims are false there full of bullshit . Ketosis puts you in a fat burning state instead of a glucose burning state when your body changes , my body stops seizing not because Keto is a fad but because it’s science . It’s the healing diet for sick children who can’t control their seizures as well . I don’t eat ungodly amounts of fat . I don’t restrict myself or eat bad fats it’s a healthy way of life that does not include processed white flour or bad carbs or at least over 50 grams a day . I eat as many veggies as I like , lean proteins and get my fats from eggs , avocado and healthy oils. My heart is in the 50-60 Instead of 80-90. My weight is 130 instead of 175-180 and I feel great . I do flexible dieti...

As I slide into 2019 I’m trying to become the victor not the victim of my circumstances. It’s ok to mourn and be angry or sad but ...... I also need to keep moving forward into a healthy mind frame because my joy can’t be based on my circumstances . Isn’t that why my ex was depressed if we are victims to Circumstances than our life and our moods will change like the seasons. We must be survivors basing our joy from within and on the solid foundation of God . Not on people places or things  or we will forever be trying to fill a void that can never be filled we will always be feeling broken and depressed we will always be chasing things or the next best thing to feel better when really we will just keep feeling worse . Here I am choosing to be a survivor . He didn’t chose to be one with me . I will always pray for him from a far but I can’t keep blaming myself . Monday I start with a trainer not any trainer a trainer who trains athletes and models he specializes in training your cor...

When you find yourself out of a toxic situation where you have been a victim of abuse how do you draw the line of not being a victim to being victimized ? And how do we not personalize the abuse because the abuser themself is in victim mode justifying there own actions to their victim story . It’s pretty sick right ? Here’s some eye opening answers may help and seeking therapy will help change this as well . Victim Consciousness and Victimized are NOT the Same Thing; Clearing the Confusion … August 12, 2016  By  Lynne Forrest   5 Comments It startles and saddens me when I am accused of being a “victim basher.” And yet, taken out of context, and without understanding, I can see how my words might lead one to think such thoughts. Nothing, however could be further from the truth, Please allow me to clarify the difference between being victimized and being in victim consciousness – for they are not the same thing at all.: Victim consciousness is a state of ...

The past month I’ve lost motivation for life as we know it . And this isn’t me . The real me is motivated, positive , happy , this me is tired and worn and can’t get out of bed and always in a fog My doctor a year ago told me my thyroid was barely working but if I took medicine it would raise my heart to high . But I need to it also stops weight loss when your thyroid is low I’m sure if I just took the medicine I would hit my goal within weeks and I would feel better . I’m sure I need vitamins to . My doctors app is Tuesday . It could also be depression I mean let’s face it I’ve been through hell and back so many times it’s becoming a vacation spot and Monday I go to my counseling should help . I’m definitely doing everything I can to help myself in any way I can do . I’m the fighter no matter how tired or sad or much I need to just give up I can’t . Raigan depends on me . I’ve survived this far . It’s like I’m all the way out here in the wilderness alone , my love is gone , my frie...

I wasn’t going to do measurements or weight until Friday but as I undressed to take a shower my waist looked so much smaller. So this is my fit blog so let me digress a year ago I wanted to lose weight fast I was tired of hating myself I wanted to feel better and be a better girl friend for my then boyfriend. I hated being insecure. So I did a liquid diet and cut my carbs. My weight dropped quickly It was hard as hell but I was determined ! Within a few months I probably dropped 20 pounds I was feeling better about myself . I knew I needed to switch up my diet or I would gain it back I’ve been in the industry long enough to know my body and how to ruin it. I slowly added a meal to my diet and I mean one piece of chicken or fish . As I started at the gym I added carbs . I still was losing weight I began flexible dieting . I began to count calories . My weight was coming off not as fast but I was doing it the right way . I was ok with that . This past month my body plateau after a year ...